Trusting God (and only God) to Provide

Can you trust God to provide for your needs, or is your impulse to try to provide for yourself?

In Proverbs 30:9, we read "Give me enough food to live on, neither too much nor too little. If I'm too full, I might get independent, saying, 'God? Who needs Him?' If I'm poor, I might steal and dishonor the name of my God."

I find myself in the former position many times. The abundance that I have distracts me from my desperate need for God. I don't think I feel the full weight of redemption and provision, because I always have enough food, my kids are healthy, I have work, I have love from my family, I have freedom by living where I live and in the time that I live.

This comfort puts me in the category of being too full, too independent. I find myself subconsciously saying, 'God? Who needs Him?' I would never say this out loud, or even consciously think it. But many times my actions speak louder than words.

While it scares me a bit to pray this prayer, I will pray it today:

Lord, give me enough food to live on, neither too much nor too little. I know that if I have too much, I'll feel independent, thinking that I don't need you. And I know if I'm poor, I may do things that are not pleasing to you, that dishonor you. God, right now I acknowledge that I'm scared of being without. But that is just a reflection of my failed faith in you. I am weak, but you are strong. Give me your strength God to simply depend on you and nothing else. I asked this in the precious and holy name of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Amen.